Sunday, April 16, 2017

An Easter Day Walk in the Woods

Easter Day is synonymous with springtime. For many this day marks an official start to the spring season. Unless it occurs very early, Easter Day’s festive celebration is made even more cheery by the longer, sunnier days and warmer breezes. In the South, the unofficial dress code allows that women may begin to wear white on Easter Day. That was a big deal when I was a kid; I got to wear a new white sweater with the flowery pastel colored Easter dress my mother made for me with a new pair of white paten leather shoes and white socks with lace trim. The forsythia is in full bloom now, the fruit trees are just about to flower and there are little leaves appearing on the lilac bushes. And all we want now after the long, cold winter months is to be outside. It’s time now to clear the debris of last fall’s garden and begin preparing the soil for planting. The best examples of resurrection are given each spring. The grey forests begin to come alive with color at long last. The long dark night of winter is past and the vibrancy of a new day is upon us. The Easter story is tethered securely to a spring day.

This connection is so firmly rooted in my psyche that when I picture Matthew’s gospel account of the women coming to the tomb and finding it empty, in my mind’s eye I have included flowering bushes and lush green grass. When Jesus greets them on the road I see all around them flowering pink cherry and white pear trees. For me there is a necessary connection between the created world and the resurrection because I believe the work of the cross was not limited to just the work of atonement but also for the work of renewing the whole of creation. Isaiah reads, “For now I create a new heaven and a new earth!”

Thomas Berry, a priest in the Passionist order called himself a “geologian” for his love of study of the earth and its systems. He wrote that “gardening is an active participation in the deepest mysteries of the universe.” He went on to say, “We will recover our sense of wonder and our sense of the sacred only if we appreciate the universe beyond ourselves as a revelatory experience of that numinous presence when all things come into being. Indeed, the universe is the primary sacred reality. We become sacred by our participation in this more sublime dimension of the world about us.” 

A week ago my good friend Dee and I were hiking in the woods on a private trail that is part of her family’s land that they’ve had possession of for some 150 years. This particular trail follows along a run for four miles. Every few yards she would stop and tell me a story, or explain where we were by particular land marks. It was the most enchanted place I have ever been. She said that at the head of one of the springs that was pouring out of the side of hill next to the trail that there was a rock with an inscription that read: DUTCH IRISH 1858 that had been there her whole life. But a few years ago someone came and took it away. This was the playground of her childhood some 65 years ago, though much of what she remembered was gone; the grapevine swings and the forts they built with rocks and tree limbs. Many of the springs that once gushed with water that were now dried up. Gone too was the big pile of rocks that marked the road that went up to the quarry and waterfall. She was distressed by all the fallen timber and natural debris that had fallen into the run; evidence that no one is there to clear it away any longer. This was the original and only road through this mountain, she said, and added, but of course back then it was just for horses and wagons. 

She told me all about her Uncle Fred who owned the land, her dad’s brother. About a half mile into the trail a house appeared. I said I could believe there was a house here on the trail and she said, “Neither could Uncle Fred.” Many decades before a neighbor who did not know where the property line began or ended built his house on the run, but on Fred’s side of it. When the error was discovered the neighbor gave Fred 40 acres in trade and the matter was resolved. 

She said that Uncle Fred wasn’t much of churchgoer. But on account it was Easter and all, his wife, who was a Baptist, talked him into going with her to worship. The preacher went on and on about a man who was a notorious drinker and gambler and carouser and a womanizer. It was a long sermon and Uncle Fred was not a bit happy about being there. I had a vision of him walking out of the church and shaking himself off, like a dog who just got dipped in a flea bath. On the way home he said that the only good part of the service was that guy in the sermon. I think Uncle Fred and I would have gotten along. 

Uncle Fred spent his life preserving the land as a heritage for those who came after him. He’s long since gone to glory, and unfortunately, for all his good intentions while living, he didn’t make any provisions for the land after his death and so much of what was, is no more. His brother was convinced that big, old magnificent barn was full of snakes and burned it down. All that’s left now is the stone foundation. The land was divided up among the children and their children, some of whom sold it off or have let the homes and trailers that they’d put up go to rot and ruin. But who could of imagined, after all? Dee reflected. When you’re young you think that things will always be the way they are and you can’t imagine it any differently. 

Through all the changes and changing of hands the trail along the run remains untouched. In the summer the tops of the trees join together far overhead to create a canopy. The trout are still plentiful in the swirling deep waters of the run, and the crawfish and the orange newts too. Many of the springs still run year round, their openings crested with thick, vibrant green moss; the clear, clean water dripping two feet across, creating the appearance of a curtain of silver chains. Animal tracks covered the damp trail, evidence of bear and deer and foxes, groundhogs, and skunks, and porcupines and black squirrels. It was clear that some bigger animal had been running, its deep footprints were embedded in the mud. The forest was alive with the sounds of birds and little creatures scurrying away from us making the dried leaves look like popcorn. We understood without saying so that we were only guests in those woods and I felt an enormous sense of respect for each living thing there. Along the trail there were clusters of short little yellow flowers with scruffy brown stems. And the sight and sound of the cold quick running water across the mossy rocks was as peaceful as most anything I’ve ever known, as filled with the Holy Spirit as the grandest cathedral, the bending trail as straight a path to God as has ever been. Theologically speaking, the closeness we feel to God through nature is evidence of God’s self-communication. It is “God’s bestowal of grace upon creation,” says Judy Cannato.

The last 1700 years of Christianity has made the teachings of Jesus somewhat complicated. And the theological reflections around his death and resurrection and his life and the doctrines and dogmas about the resurrection fill volumes of books that fit under the heading of Christology. In a cursory search I found nine theories on the atonement; that should tell you a lot. The bottom line of each of them is a universal belief that all Christians share about God. And that is that God is love. That love is unabashedly revealed in the risen Lord. But it is also evident in every blade of grass and every star in the heavenly constellation. The whole of the created world is an outpouring of God’s love, a cosmic Christ that reaches far beyond our doctrinal limitations. Thomas Berry wrote, “We must feel that we are supported by that same power that brought the Earth into being, that power that spun the galaxies into space, that tilt the sun and brought the moon into its orbit.” 


On this most wonderful day in God’s created world let us now celebrate the Pascal feast surrounded by the flowers of remembrance of those who have gone before; with the sweet fragrance of Spring in the air; with our precious guest, the lamb, our four-legged brother/sister; with the four elements of creation: earth, air, fire and water - all our relations; with the sacred Word and festive song; with the spiritual food of the body and blood of Christ Jesus, and the assurance of the promise of the resurrection: that there is nothing in all of heaven or on earth that can separate us from the love of God. 

Friday, April 14, 2017

Good Friday: The body politic

Dorothee Söelle was a leading German feminist liberation theologian, poet, activist and author of many books. She taught for 12 years at Union Seminary and emphasized the role that mysticism can play in the struggle for social and gender justice. She died in 2003, the year I was studying her in seminary.

Söelle was required reading given her strong theological statements surrounding the Holocaust. The idea of a God who was "in heaven in all its glory" while Auschwitz was organized was "unbearable" for Söelle. She felt strongly that God has to be protected against such simplifications. She coined the term Christofacism as a statement against fundamentalist Christianity. The role of the complicit church in Nazi German was highly formative in her theological development. I remember my professor talking about how ashamed Söelle was of the Christian church for not just ignoring, but enabling the Nazi rise to power. WWII footage of church services in Hilter’s Germany record the images of Nazi flags draped across altars. For some people Söelle was a prophet who abolished the separation of theological science and practice of life, while for others she was a heretic, whose theories couldn't be reconciled with the traditional understanding of God, and her ideas were therefore rejected as theological cynicism.  In the Episcopal Church her work is seriously regarded as transformative and relevant. 

It is through courageous theologians such as Dorothee Söelle that we are challenged to forge a faith that shapes and directs our lives. Many of us have ideological convictions that are based on our political self-understanding. But Söelle and other Christian mystics hold us accountable for having political convictions that are not grounded first and foremost in a mature understanding of the work of the Godhead that strives tirelessly for justice, that is, balance.

To get to where Söelle is, we must, especially on this day, on Good Friday, understand that the Gospels are, among other things, political documents - that Jesus was not only a Rabbi and healer, but was most certainly an activist. Like all activist he knew the dangers and the stakes. His procession into Jerusalem that we celebrated on Palm Sunday was a political protest, a mockery of Herod’s military procession. In an act of civil disobedience he went into the temple to protest the corruption of institutionalized Judaism with a grand display of righteous anger. In his rage he picked up the tables and threw them over and threw out the money handlers. Throughout his ministry he confronted the political machinery of Rome and Judaism with great courage and unwavering conviction, grounded firmly in the scriptural depiction of the fairness of God’s nature and God’s compassion for the poor. The phrase, the Kingdom of God, was coined in direct opposition to the Kingdom of Rome. He could not win against the powers and principalities and he knew it. But he could show us how we are to respond. He has provided for us a model of righteous anger with an absence of violence. Though the violence done to him was brutal, Jesus himself had never once instigated or condoned a single act of violence against another human being.

We seem squeamish about associating the Christ with politics, but in fact, our theologies, often immature and unmoored from its original source, or a total lack thereof, has been shaping our political landscape for decades. We have become a God-less, fearful people in desperate need of a Christ. Not a Jesus crushed on the cross for the sole purpose of ensuring our heaven-bound destination. No, we are in need of a Christ from which we cannot be separated, not by sin, not by death, not by the cross, not by any enemy, nor any threat of darkness. We are in need of a Christ who struggles as we struggle, who suffers as we suffer, who laughs as we laugh, who weeps as we weep. We are in need of a Christ who is the source of our convictions not the defender of them; a Christ who informs every thought we think and who guides the meditations of our hearts. We are in need of a Christ to teach us how to live as if everything in the whole of creation depends upon it, and how to find the courage to protest the power of evil that hems us in at every turn. And we are in need of a Christ who can teach us the meaning of the word Mercy.

One of the best known works by Dorothee Söelle is a poem which she delivered on Oct. 1, 1968. 

CREDO
I believe in God
who created the world not ready made
like a thing that must forever stay what it is
who does not govern according to eternal laws
that have perpetual validity
nor according to natural orders
of poor and rich,
experts and ignoramuses,
people who dominate and people subjected.
I believe in God
who desires the counter-argument of the living
and the alteration of every condition
through our work
through our politics.

I believe in Jesus Christ
who was right when he
“as an individual who can’t do anything”
just like us
worked to alter every condition
and came to grief in so doing
Looking to him I discern 
how our intelligence is crippled,
our imagination suffocates,
and our exertion is in vain
because we do not live as he did

Every day I am afraid
that he died for nothing
because he is buried in our churches,
because we have betrayed his revolution
in our obedience to and fear
of the authorities.

I believe in Jesus Christ
who is resurrected into our life
so that we shall be free
from prejudice and presumptuousness
from fear and hate
and push his revolution onward
and toward his reign

I believe in the Spirit
who came into the world with Jesus,
in the communion of all peoples
and our responsibility for what will become of our earth:
a valley of tears, hunger, and violence
or the city of God.
I believe in the just peace
that can be created,
in the possibility of meaningful life
for all humankind,
in the future of this world of God.
Amen 


Sunday, February 12, 2017

The Questions of Heaven

[The following is based on Matthew 5:21-37)

I like to follow the question and answer column of Rabbi Rami Shapiro who writes for Spirituality and Health magazine. It serves to remind me of the wide variety of spiritual and religious ideas out there in the world and how traumatized, fearful and confused people can be about the teachings of Biblical texts. I found this one recently that seemed to fit particularly well with today’s difficult lesson from Matthew: 

Qx from reader: I worry about the afterlife. What is the best way to get into heaven?
Shapiro’s answer: Judaism teaches that admission to Heaven depends on your answers to six questions: 

Did you make time to learn?
Did you take care of loved ones?
Did you deal honestly with others?
Did you maintain hope?
Did you partake of all the legitimate pleasures that came your way?
Were you true to yourself?

Judaism is an Abrahamic faith with whom Christianity shares many similarities, including the whole of the Old Testament. These questions are good ones. They help us find a way in and out of Jesus’ thought provoking teaching that covers the worst of our offenses to one another, tears at the fabric of authentic community, and separates us from the Ground of all Being (Tillich).

One of the concerns that comes up in this reading is the part about divorce. It is very important that we do not try to apply the conditions of this text in which Jesus is quoted from 2000 years ago in a world that does not remotely relate to our own in many ways.  Jesus’ world is the Middle East. Think Saudi Arabia when you read this text on divorce. The Rabbi’s questions that relate to this situation are: Did you take care of loved ones? Did you deal honestly with others? 

Additionally, it is helpful when studying difficult biblical passages is to focus the meta-narrative and not try to make each word applicable, in a literal sense. Jesus is employing metaphors; they are not meant to be taken literally. Otherwise, each of us would be blind and continually cutting off body parts. Again, think Saudi Arabia where that still happens as a matter of course. Here the Rabbi's questions are helpful as a guide to put along side this lesser known part of the Sermon on the Mount.

It is also helpful to consider that the text might well begin with an assumption of human goodness. Though it has often been taught the other way around. Christianity is clearly divided on this issue. One way of saying this is that you either have a high or a low anthology. You either believe in the goodness of humanity from birth which is corrupted by the conditions and false teachings of the world or you believe that humanity is born corrupted and can only be redeemed by faith. 

I approach spiritual matters from the place of a high anthology; maintaining the premise of the goodness of humanity and the corrupting influence of the world. Let us be clear; either road leads to the same place - a need for redemption, that is, to have a change of heart. A change of heart begins with an open and discerning heart, and a healthy sense of curiosity captured in the age-old spiritual injunction: Know thyself. Commentator John Shea writes: “The ones who want to know themselves will set up a watching and listening post in the center of their being.” I don’t know if Rabbi Shapiro meant for the questions he lays out to be in any particular order but I think it was interesting that he put at the top: Did you take time to learn? We can flesh that out by adding to the question: Did you take time to learn about yourself?

In this gospel lesson Jesus’ graphically points out that we all have a shadow side. Everyone.  Some people lead with their shadow and every part of their life is a whirlwind of chaos. Others fool you into thinking they are nearly angelic. Everyone has a shadow. A healthy spiritual life embraces the shadow and tempers it with self-love and discipline. In this teaching Jesus seeks not to introduce us to others to whom we may point our fingers and say, “You are so selfish,” or “You are such a liar,” or “You are so wicked,” but to reveal to our own selves the capability we have for the same. We all have a shadow side. When we do not learn to identify and engage our shadow it will run our lives and corrupt us from the inside. We become narcissistic and narrow-minded, lacking in compassion. Our shadow does not think these questions have value and resist the self-reflection they require. Our shadow prefers the dark and not the light of introspection. Our shadow side is distracted by shiny objects and does not focus on things of substance for very long. We know we are controlled by it when we can see only the faults in others and do not realize that we are looking into a mirror. It is for this reason that the cultivation of a spiritual practice is essential. A valid practice would be to ask yourself those simple questions each and every day. The goal is not to be good as opposed to bad. The goal is to be awake, self-aware, centered, empathetic, and ready to act for the common good.

An excellent teacher to help us to embrace our shadow and find wholeness and holiness in the present moment is Buddhist monk Thich Nhat Hanh. Thay, as he is affectionately known by his students, did not come to his conclusions from a position of naive privilege.  He lived through the Vietnam War and saw immense pain, violence, suffering and tragedy firsthand…. He went into the countryside, where the fighting was the worst, and provided support - rebuilding towns, schools, villages. He risked his own life many times, and many of his close friends and colleagues were killed. He was exiled in 1968 because of his peace work. Author Nadia Colburn says that, “At the heart of his teachings is the insight that peace starts from within.” Christians understand the peace he refers to as The peace that passes all understanding. In 1978 Thay wrote the poem for which he is well-known, entitled Please Call Me by My True Names. Here is a portion of it:

I am a mayfly metamorphosing
on the surface of the river.
And I am the bird
that swoops down to swallow the mayfly.
I am a frog swimming happily
in the clear water of a pond.
And I am the grass-snake
that silently feeds itself on the frog.
I am the child in Uganda, all skin and bones,
my legs as thin a bamboo sticks.
And I am the arms merchant,
selling deadly weapons to Uganda.
I am the twelve-year-old girl,
refugee on a small boat,
who throws herself into the ocean
after being raped by a sea pirate.
And I am the pirate,
my heart not yet capable
of seeing and loving.
Please call me by my true names,
so I can hear all my cries and laughter at once,
so I can see that my joy and pain are one.
Please call me by my true names,
so I can wake up
and the door of my heart
could be left open,
the door of compassion.

The spiritual teaching of Thay’s poem helps us to embrace the completeness of our humanity, the goodness and the shadow that co-exist. 

Jesus, the divine teacher, challenges us with these hard lessons that he preached to the masses on a Galilean hillside. It requires hard questions that are not asked once and forgotten. 

Did you make time to learn?
Did you take care of loved ones?
Did you deal honestly with others?
Did you maintain hope?
Did you partake of all the legitimate pleasures that came your way?

Were you true to yourself?

Saturday, December 24, 2016

Come, come, whoever you are: A Christmas homily

In a clergy discussion group the question of the Christmas homily came up. The question was this: How do we talk about a story that has been told again and again, year after year and is so familiar it seems difficult to speak of it in a new way? The question itself reveals that we are products of our culture; especially the Christmas culture. If it is not new or original or catchy, or flashy, or have a spin, or promise to make us feel better in some way we are not terribly interested. We preachers feel as though we must respond to a culture that says, Surprise me.

But the answer to the question does not lie in a grand retelling of Christ birth narrative. The preachers’ work is to transmit the core of the biblical meta-narrative, not tell the story. The story has already been told. And that meta-narrative does not change over time. And it cannot be improve upon. Nor can it be added to or parts of it removed. It is central and stable and unmoving. The meta-narrative is an invitation to return to the source of all things, return to God.  Preachers are much less storytellers as we are the re-issuers of the invitation. And the invitation is sent out again and again. Preachers remind the church and the world of God’s invitation to be open to and in communion with the Godhead because it is not just the uninitiated or unaffiliated but Christians themselves who are not always in communion, even though they may profess to be so. We know well when we have lost our way. And we do so with regularity. And we know when it is time to come home. And so the invitation is sent out repeatedly, week after week, day after day, hour after hour, and minute by minute by an army of preachers bearing the scrolls of stories, and proclamations of good news and forgiveness, and promises of grace and the assurance of the gift of unending, unconditional love. 

That is what the Christmas story is, in the final analysis; a grand invitation, the mother of all invitations (pun intended). This night, through song and word, in the reading of the holy and ancient texts, and in the offering of the sacraments are extended various incarnations of invitation.
This invitation to return was very beautifully put into verse by Rumi the 13th-century Persian, Sunni, Muslim poet, jurist, Islamic scholar, theologian, and Sufi mystic. Rumi's influence transcends national borders and ethnic divisions. When he died in 1273 he was mourned by Christians and Jews, as well as Muslims and Buddhists. Given that it was the Persian wise men, the Mystics from the East that saw the star and followed it to the stable to greet the newborn King lying in a manger, makes them part of the story. The wise men recognized the invitation and they accepted. They came bearing gifts and paid homage to the newborn King.

Rumi’s poem, a fitting reflection for us this night, is this: 
“Come, come, whoever you are. Wanderer, worshiper, lover of leaving. It doesn't matter. Ours is not a caravan of despair. Come, even if you have broken your vows a thousand times. Come, yet again, come, come.”
Captured here is the eternal call of God to God’s people, Come, come, whoever you are. It includes the wanderer and the worshipper, the lovers of leaving - we are, each one of us, all of those things, wanderers, worshippers (of something) and lovers of leaving. 

When I first read this I was moved to tears. Who among us as not broken our vows. Not the vows that bind us on earth, but the vows between us and our God. The holy texts tell us that we were known intimately by God while we were in our mother’s womb; in the silent world before we knew our mothers we knew only God. There we were formed and shaped and came to have our being. We are wonderfully made. God was with us all the while. But what do we recall of the timeless time before we were born into time? Time alone is counting the seconds and minutes and hours and days and weeks and months and years we have believed ourselves separated from God. The invitation is to return by remembrance. Remember who you are. 

One of the parts of the prayer over the sacraments in preparation of Holy Communion is the prayer of remembrance. We remember the story of the last supper, the institution of the sacraments, and we are invited into the body through that remembrance. Worship has many kinds of invitations. It is a complex dance with many doors through which we enter to remember. 

The stories we tell are not a caravan of despair. That Jesus was born into scandal is not a story of despair. That the Christ child was born into the most humble, if not difficult of circumstances, is not a story of despair. That Jesus was marked for death at birth by the powers and principalities that ruled over the land is not a story of despair. The shadow of the cross that proceeds our telling of the Good News in Jesus the Christ is not born of despair. It is a proclamation of invitation. 

It does not matter how far you have wandered, what trouble you are in, or how deep your despair. It does not matter with whom you have consorted or followed or pledged loyalty. It doesn’t matter who you betrayed or what you have done, or worse still, all the things you failed to do or left undone. The wounds you did not bind. The hungry you did not feed. The angels you dismissed. Not one of us can claim a clean ticket. It does not matter. If it did, the story would be empty of its power; the invitation would be invalid. There can be no exceptions. It does not matter. You are invited to return, you are invited to remember to whom you belong and for what reason. You have only forgotten.


“Come, come, whoever you are. Wanderer, worshiper, lover of leaving. It doesn't matter. Ours is not a caravan of despair. Come, even if you have broken your vows a thousand times. Come, yet again, come, come.”

Sunday, December 11, 2016

What are you leaving out?

The spiritual life is often driven by the question: What’s missing? The quest to answer that question often leads people back to church or to pick up reading spiritual authors to fill what is perceived as a void. It doesn’t seem to matter if life and the daily calendar are full or if life is less filled with activity. Something just seems to be missing - there is a longing to be a part of the thing that is bigger that we are; that indescribable thing that we can no more grasp then mist or water. There is something that is calling our attention and we both desire to follow to see where it leads and distracted by many things. 

Jesus addresses this quest when he addresses the crowd remembering to them their time with John in the wilderness. He asks them What did you think you would find there? In three different ways he asks them this question: What did you go out into the wilderness to look at? What then did you go out to see? and again, What then did you go out to see? When we are seeking something that we think is missing or to put something back that has been lost we are paying close attention. That is the task of the spiritual life - to pay close attention. 

There was once a Buddhist student who had been living in a monastery praying and studying to become enlightened for many years. The time came that he was done with his work there and was preparing to leave. When he came to meet with the master on the day of his departure it was raining. He left his umbrella outside the door and went in. In the course of their talk the master asks the man, What side of the door did you put your umbrella the right or the left? The man did not know.  He returned to his studies and to the life of prayer for another ten years. 

The necessity of giving each moment in life our full attention cannot be understated. It is because we do not yet know the value of this attentiveness and that the kingdom of God is with us, yet hidden from us that we go on spiritual journeys and seek to find what is with us and has never not been available to us. Our searching gives us away. Jesus speaks from that in-between place, whispering to us: What have you come to see?

John Shea speaks of our lack of attention to the things that call to us in the spiritual realm through the metaphor of the parable of the seed that is scattered on the ground: 
The seed that falls by the side of the road and is devoured by the birds means we do not have the time or inclination to entertain the teachings of Jesus. The side of the road is not the middle of the road, the place where we normally walk. If we would consider the seeds, we would have to alter our routine, step outside the way we work But this does not happen because the devouring birds do not allow it. The devouring birds are symbols of our inattention to the seed, our failure to heed and consider what we have heard. The seed of the word is given no chance. As soon as it lands, it is taken away. The Gospel interpretation is that these birds are like the devil. The devil, diabolos, does what his name signifies. He breaks things apart. When we are this first soil, there is a brief contact with the Word, but no real coming together at all. The seed and the soil are quickly separated. The seed may be a wake-up call, but we turn away and go back to sleep. (Shea, On earth as it is in heaven, 16.)

But sometimes we are roused from our sleep unexpectedly. We are called to attention from some supernatural event in places where the veil is very thin - if we are open to being in that place. 
In Tales of a Magic Monastery, Theophany the Monk tells a story. He is in the House of God and late at night he hears a voice. 
“What are you leaving out?
I looked around. I heard it again.
“WHAT ARE YOU LEAVING OUT?”
Was it my imagination? Soon it was all around me, whispering, roaring, “What are you leaving out? What are you leaving out?” 
Was I cracking up? I managed to get to my feet and head for the door. I wanted the comfort of a human face or a human voice. Nearby was the corridor where some of the monks live I knocked on once cell. 
“What do you want/“ came a sleepy voice.
“What am I leaving out?”
“Me,” he answered. 
I went to the next door. 
“What do you want?”
“What am I leaving out?”
“Me.”
A third cell, a fourth, all the same.
I thought, “They’re all stuck on themselves.” I left the building in disgust. Just then the sun was coming up. I had never spoken to the sun before but I heard myself pleading, “What am I leaving out?” The sun too answered, “Me.” That finished me.
I threw myself on the ground. And the earth said, “Me.”

When we are attentive we see the world as God sees it. Not the world we have created, with all its glitter and bling and the poverty and despair it creates. That is the world of our making. God sees the world that was created in which God finds expression. And it is not the anthropocentric world in which we seat ourselves at the head of the table. The work of the spiritual life is to see the world, the created world through the eyes of God. We cannot see what we are leaving out because, like the monk, we don’t have eyes to see it. We are like children who have built an imaginary world out of Legos. The little blocks and all their various shapes and sizes and the amazement of how they were made and all the possibilities for creating new things drawn us in an away from the ground we are sitting on. God did not create Legos but rather dirt. Dirt does not seem that interesting. But a thoughtful and curious person who turns their attention away from plastic toys might find the microcosm of dirt and all the life held within in and the knowledge that it necessary for all life and that its state of health bears a direct correlation to our own state of health might find it is infinitely more interesting after all. There is more to contemplate in a single dried leaf that has fallen and a single snowflake or a feather found on the ground or an odd shaped rock with shiny flecks or a flock of birds restlessly changing configuration over a dew covered field then all the books that have ever been written. 

Chaim Potak, in The Gift of Asher Lev, wrote: 
My father of blessed memory once said to me, on the verse in Genesis, “And He saw all the He had made and behold it was good.” - my father once said that the seeing of God is not like the seeing of man. Man sees only between the blinks of his eyes. He does not know what the world is like during the blinks. He sees the world in pieces, in fragments. But the master of the universe sees the world whole, unbroken. That world is good. Our seeing is broken, Asher Lev. Can we make it like the seeing of God? Is it possible? 


The quest to see as God sees begins with attentiveness. Of seeing what is there. What did you go out there to see? Jesus asks them. What have you come here to see? I ask you. What is it you hope to find? or to feel? or to realize? or to grab a hold of? or experience? or to take home with you? What is it you are leaving out?

Sunday, May 8, 2016

Good death talk

This Gospel passage we are invited to meditate upon this day (John 17:20-26) is Jesus’ prayer to his Father in heaven regarding his coming death. It signifies his physical death and the coming wave of grief that will knock his followers to their knees. Mary Magdalene will search for his bodily remains only to find an empty tomb.  His death will also signify a transitional event; life transformed – life to life. Furthermore, a gate of understanding about death will open wide for all those who follow in his way.

Today, we are given a teaching about death. And how sorely is the world in need of it. How sorely I am in need of it.

The Book of Common Prayer notes the following regarding the burial service of the Episcopal Church. Within the following words can be found a synthesis of the theology of death that is often described as the great Christian hope.

The liturgy for the dead is an Easter liturgy.  It finds all its meaning in the resurrection. Because Jesus was raised from the dead, we, too, shall be raised.     
     
The liturgy, therefore, is characterized by joy, in the certainty that “neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus or Lord.”

This joy, however, does not make human grief unchristian. The very love we have for each other in Christ brings deep sorrow when we are parted by death.  Jesus himself wept at the grave of his friend. So, while we rejoice that one we love has entered into the nearer presence of our Lord, we sorrow in sympathy with those who mourn.

Every year I devote the altar flowers to my sister who died on May 9, 1993. It has been a long time now, 23 years, and in truth if I did not intentionally mark the date of her passing with flowers it is likely this week would come and go without a thought.  But such a ritual helps me remember her and honor her life. It also helps me to remember that her life, like all those who have passed before us, has not ended but has changed. One of my trusted friends in the esoteric world has assured me that Catherine is a strong and abiding presence in my life; a protective influence, as she describes it. Though it is hard for me to realize Catherine in any form other than the one I knew up until she took her last breath. At the time of her passing, when I looked upon her breathless body I knew she was not there. One minute she as there and the next she was absent. And I wondered, Where did she go? I said to her in my mind: Where are you now? Are you in the corner of the ceiling looking down at us crying for you? Do you now have wings so you can fly? Are you in the heavens with God? What is it like where you are?

Since that time, my father, who was also an Episcopal priest, died five years ago. In his moment of passing, I said to myself and to him: Now you know. Now you are on the other side and you know what we cannot know until we come to where you are. Now you know the truth about the faith you proclaimed. Or you simply know what is truth and how far or how near we come to getting it right.

William Shannon, wrote of death in this way: We are one with one another because whatever of us there is that is really worthwhile is from God and in God.  And that is something that death does not and cannot change – though it appears to do so, since we are so accustomed to think of a person solely in terms of her empirical ego. Death is the end of the empirical ego, but not of the person. We are all eternally one in the love of God.”  Theologian John Shea expounded on the idea of spiritual presence verses the “empirical ego” by saying: “In short, we are addicted to physical presence. We want to smell the hair of our children, touch our lover’s hand, look into another’s eyes, and hear human laughter. We cannot imagine presence without the impact of the physical senses. Our consciousness not only dwells on the physical and psychological, it often stops there. So when the spiritual is all we have, we cannot confidently discern it and are highly suspicious of those who say they can…. We really want what we can no longer have. Spiritual presence is second best, a poor substitute for flesh.”

I think he is courageous for having said this. There are a lot of should’s for Christians who grieve. They are the things we know we should feel or appreciate that we can’t reconcile in our moment of despair. There are things we dare not say lest someone think we have abandoned our faith.  Instead we believe: We should be content to know that our loved ones are in a “better place.” We should take consolation in their passing from death into life. We should rejoice in that they are now free. But few of us, are quite there, for quite some time.

Months after the suicide of his son, one of my parishioners in the depths of his inconsolable sorrow suddenly yelled out: I want my son back!  We want them back.

But Shea is confident and persistent in his argument that we can in fact can share in the life of our loved ones once again through the practice of spiritual presence. I cannot say how shocked I was to read his description of this practice from a Roman Catholic theologian.  He roots the practice in Jesus’ words recorded in John’s Gospel: “And I have given them the glory you gave me, so that they may be one, as we are one, I in them and you in me, that they may be brought to perfection as one….”

The practice of spiritual presence is simple really. But it does require that we accept without hesitation that the center of our being is a spiritual reality that is distinct and apart from the body’s that we inhabit.  This should be familiar to you: We are spiritual beings having a human experience. We are not humans having an occasional spiritual experience.  As spiritual beings we have particular capacities which we can develop. Meditation is not a toy or a pillow upon which to rest our heads. It is a tool by which we can, if we wish, hone our spiritual capabilities. Shea goes on to suggest that should we be able to accept that this is our true nature, that we are sovereign beings inextricably connected to God throughout eternity, and not as bound to our physical bodies as we have been taught, then we can begin to focus our attention inwardly; to find our centers. This is the goal of the practice of Centering Prayer, a mediation technique made famous by the contemplative monk Thomas Merton. Shea speaks of centering in this way: “When our consciousness rests in this center, we become aware it is receiving its being and love from elsewhere. It is not its own reality. It is dependent on a larger reality that is filling it from within and encouraging it to connect with other spiritual centers and to share its life with them.” Anyone who has ever sat in meditation for five minutes knows this as truth. In an instant we know that we are more than just our body and our name. I believe that the transition to death must be something like this. I have seen a lot of people die. And I must conclude that I do not think that death snatches us and tears us away from the fabric of the temporal life but rather beckons us to follow and we cannot resist the silent, sublime call of God to return from hence we came.

To reconnect with the ones we love who have passed from this life all we need do is to move from the center of our being into the center of their being. Our imagination is the tool we need to accomplish this. Move your center into their center. And you do not go alone; with you comes the love of God. Shea warns sternly that the only purpose of this activity is to further realize the love of God. This is a very serious spiritual practice and should not be misused.

Beyond reconnecting as companions with loved ones who have passed, the practice of spiritual presence can be applied in day to day life. How often are you asked to pray for someone? Shea describes prayer in this way: “Prayer is a capacity of our consciousness to move beyond the physically imposed boundaries of our skin and enter in the spiritual center of another…. Then we are in them and they are in us, and we are both in Christ, and [God] is in Christ and in us, and the love of God is in and through all….”

I conclude where I began, at the Episcopal burial rite. The opening words are these:
I am Resurrection and I am Life, says the Lord.
Whoever has faith in me shall have life, even though he die.
And everyone who has life… shall not die forever.



Source: The Relentless Widow: The Spiritual Wisdom of the Gospels for Christian Preachers and Teachers, by John Shea, pp. 150-152. 

Monday, March 28, 2016

The Then that is Now

Someone wrote me a word of encouragement recently and began with the word, “then.”  Then you will…. It inferred that then was now, or at least very close to now. Then was not just a point in the future at which, time would press into the now, but rather then supposes the next rung of a ladder. Then, is what’s next in this very moment.

John’s Easter morning gospel is filled with thens. Then Peter and the disciples go to the tomb. Then Simon Peter enters the tomb. Then the beloved disciple believed. Then the disciples return to their homes. Then points to more than just chronological events. Then is a suitcase into which we are packed and unpacked at the empty tomb. Then presses us to accept what is in front of us, not what we hope will be, not what someone has promised us, but simply what is now. 

Then is at the heart of Divine Mystery; the then we know and the then we do not yet know.  To know the unknowable is the paradox of the then that is now.  Theologian C.H. Dodd coined this as “already, but not yet.” If, on this Easter morning, you are not too sure what to think or believe than I can assure you that your faith is therefore sound. The disciples have faced what is known, the Lord has gone, but they do not know. Mary has seen and spoken with the risen Lord and yet she cannot fully know.  There has long been a place in theological discourse for agnosticism. That is, the concession that one does not know beyond the limits of what is known. Knowing and not knowing creates an authentic faith because it reflects the ‘then’ that will surely come, and our inability to return from the grave to give a full report. We believe, but we do not know. I sometimes say of myself, if it weren’t for my skepticism I’d have no faith at all. Another way of getting at this is the turned around phrase: I wouldn’t have seen it if I haven’t of believed it. That is not the same as, I wouldn’t have believed it if I hadn’t of seen it.  Do you believe because you have seen? or do you see because you believed?  The assumption is that seeing is believing. But the spiritual life begins from the assumption we cannot see into the mystery of anything unless we possess at least a modicum of faith.

In John Shea’s Easter commentary he tells the following story from one of Rachel Rem’s personal reflections of counseling sessions she had a with a man in the final stages of prostate cancer (My Grandfather’s Blessings, Riverhead Books, 2000, 339-42). In the course of their conversations, he says, “Rachel, I am an educated man. I must believe that death is the end. And you, an educated woman, surely you believe that death is the end also.” But Rachel responds that she does not know. As their sessions continue, the man continues to raise the question and presents strong arguments for his position. However, Rachel stands firm, saying over and over again that she just does not know. At times seriousness of this conversation turns to joking. The man says he will come back from the dead to visit her as a crane. She kids him back that showing up as a great white crane is a little obvious. He agrees and changes it. “I will do something that you will recognize.” One day after he has died, Rachel is thinking about him as she enters an empty elevator. On the floor of the elevator is one large and perfect white feather. She refuses to take the feather as proof of anything. She clings to her agnostic position, but she concludes, “The important thing is that Mystery does happen and offers us the opportunity to wonder together and reclaim a sense of awe and aliveness.”  

Rachel is describing the eternal mystery of Easter: mystery, by definition is a form of not knowing.  Easter is the story of then’s that pull meaning from someone else’s time and place and depositing it into our now.  Then Mary weeps at the empty tomb. Then Jesus appears to her. Then she tells the others. Then we are perplexed. Then we wonder what this can mean. Then we know that death is not the final word. Then we know that we have been redeemed. Then our knowing and not knowing are complete. Easter faith is born anew.  Easter faith is at the heart of every baptism.

This Easter day we welcome Krystal Smith into the Christian faith and into the life of this community. The Celebration of the Pascal Feast has always been a primary day for baptisms. For us all, Easter is a day that invites us to shed the old way of life and make room for the possibility of new beginnings; to watch for stirrings in our spiritual life. Krystal desires to be received into the communion of the faithful and we will this day pledge to support her in her Christian journey. Baptism is ultimately about new life; the dying of self from the ways of the world which weights everything in terms of certainty, into a community that is structured by both knowing and not knowing.  I urge you Krystal to maintain a healthy sense of skepticism - it will keep you wary of the trickery and wickedness of the world and provide a platform upon which you can test your young faith.  I urge you to love without condition. It may seem that skepticism and unconditional love cannot co-exist. But these two things hold together the tension that every Christian comes to understand as the guideposts of discipleship; that is the ways in which we find our way through the world. It expresses our belief that in every person exist the divinity of God; but acknowledges that not everything that people do is Godly.  God is love. And we are called first to live that love. It is not the church that calls you Krystal but Love itself. So you are commanded to love the people who love you as well as those who do not return your love; to love those whom you have never met, and those who have wronged you. This does not mean you must like them or let anyone take advantage of you or hurt you in any way. It does mean that you must understand that they too are on a journey. Their deeds, for good or ill, are not your business. Revenge is not your business. Love is your business. You are only required to balance not knowing with what you know in your heart to be true and to show your love through acts of kindness. It is not always easy. That is why belonging to a community that strives together for the same end will sustain you. Krystal, we welcome you to the community of St. James Episcopal Church, and into the world-wide Anglican Communion and into the household of God established as the Christian Church.